Searching from the Soul, a Personal Account

I don’t have the greatest gift in writing. It is always a challenge to find the appropriate words, and piecing them together to deliver the message to closely match the meaning with the inspired thoughts which come to mind. It takes effort in second guessing readers’ minds whether the presented points could be understood with ease. And, I do have an incorrigible tendency in rambling on. So, it did not come as a surprise that my article on “Lord’s Prayer, a Gift of Deliverance” has prompted some readers to question my views. I guess the best way to put things in a clearer perspective is to quote a personal experience.

Born a Catholic who goes to church regularly in his youth couldn’t find the appeal in the weekly rituals. I just could not get pass as a “good” Christian like the others. I could not find the connection at least a spiritual one. The years in attending mass which takes me through the process of reciting prayers, singing hymns, kneeling, standing, sitting and receiving the communion are repeating disciplines only to serve as a constant reminder. The rule is simple enough, accept God with faith as told. I failed to relate to this, and the lack in sincerity kept me from a distance. All the years, I have not inculcated any long lasting and meaningful change. I have seen how feeble the mind is when it comes to the “crunch” in the worst of times, and faith is instantly shaken. All those years of drumming the disciplines into my head has its limits, and I realised admission to God from the mind is weak, and to know God I needed to connect with my soul which is driving my mind.

The mind conceptualises God, but the spirit conceives it. That is my stand. I needed that experience to understand that can bring more meaning. Notice the distinction. When the soul searches, God is everywhere but when the mind searches, we go to church. When the soul searches, I realised the concept of God dematerialises from my mind, and emphasis is placed more on the connection. With a spiritual connection, everything flows into its proper places and no longer necessary to impose the definition of God in mind. This means that I imagine less of God, although I use the term plenty of times for illustration purposes.

So, what do I do to “know thyself”? I steer myself carefully between extreme lines of thoughts. The more I do this, the more I feel comforted. My mind is more relaxed, not pressured or threatened by my environment. I discriminate less of my environment and it discriminate less of me. But, there is no guarantee that my days will flow uninterrupted. There are always distractions being a family man and all. I am bound to have “nudges” and occasional “jabs”. But one thing is clear, if I am subtle in my actions it is a “doing” which encourages the spirit, unlike actions stemmed from pride which sits naturally with the mind. It’s not a sign of weakness, but the opposite. The spirit instils courage in me. And, you do see things differently when you choose to have a relationship more with the soul than the mind.

Having said all that, Jesus was a great man, but even greater was his spirit. That is where I drew my conviction from to interpret the “Lord’s Prayer” the way I did. The words are meant to speak to your soul to relate to God. The prayer serves as a “bridge” which connects to Heaven. Which way would you prefer, to connect with God by engaging the mind in imagination, or evoking the spirit in a lasting experience?

From that stand point, it is suffice to say that the views given on the “Lord’s Prayer, a Gift of Deliverance” are not over stepping the boundaries of the Christian belief, nor a contradiction. It is complimentary I would imagine, and I feel somewhat deprived of that wisdom. I did not renounce my religion, there is no reason for that and I am free to attend masses whenever I felt like it.

Religion is a good base to start for the mind to build a spiritual foundation, and without being bias I would encourage anyone with a Christian faith to attend mass. Christianity, Islam, Buddhism are all respectable religious fellowships which centered their priority on one thing, peace by forgiving. I would research all their published materials if I could, but I would to have to change profession because that would take more than a life time to accomplish the task. Religion guides us to a point in our life’s journey, but what will remain is the walk we make our own.

Old Traits for New Ones

Perhaps the greatest challenge in which life has to offer is – to recognise, accept and embrace our undesirable traits. These traits erupt from memory of experiences which shaped our individual characters that defined the unique role in which we play in these vast seas of human demographic. The process of recognition will first help to kick-in a conscientious effort to initiate all   necessary steps for our minds to come to terms with changes that we evoke.

Rather than engaging in a struggle to totally rid of the undesirable traits in an abrupt way, instead we constantly change directions. We make small manoeuvres in changing directions but still maintaining our sights on the goal. Like dancing to the waltz, swaying and turning but we remain ‘present’ in the room. To remain rooted to the present is key in dissuading the mind from embarking in the process of imagination. Everything we do must stay relevant and real. The solution to this approach will reveal a gradual dissolution of our undesirable traits and finally unfolding a sense of acceptance.

The simple reason to why we take such subtle approach is because we are biological. The general accepted understanding about the mind is believed to be centred on the brain. However, now modern science is beginning to recognise that the mind is just more than the brain. For instance, the automated and correlated responses by our body’s auto-immune system in producing the antibodies needed in its defence to the invasion of various antigens in which the prescription of the antidote is so precise that scientists now realised that every cell in our body must contain some form of memory, thus conscience. So, it is said that each cell of the trillion of cells in our body has a conscience because when a purpose is fulfilled by a decisive action based on experience or memory deduces its presence. In similar fashion as our blood sugar level changes, specialised cells in the pancreas will secrete hormones to help recalibrate the sugar level.

There is no logical explanation to such an apt and organised ‘military-like’ display that is even thought of as pretentious pronouncing that they’ve “been there and done that”. Whether the conscience is singular or a collective of consciousness is not known as consciousness is inconceivable by the mind. Thence, the mind is not only in the brain, it is the embodiment of the entire circuitry system of our body connected by a comprehensive web of network.

Coming back to the subject of personal development – Altering the path of our undesirable traits require engagement in the process of changing our state of mind by welcoming our problems into a relationship. However, what most of us would choose to apply is rejection. This approach can build up an internal resistance which actually reinforces our emotional statement that there is something to dislike about ourselves. Rejection disrupts the natural state of inertia of our mind giving rise to emotional resistance. So, it becomes a vicious cycle of many struggles causing personal development to spiral downwards resulting in dejection and despair.

Hence, it’s self-defeating to denounce any part of us as memories are not meant to be erased, but to be embraced. Undesirable traits are expressions of memories embedded in the ‘mind’. Expressions of these traits derived from past experiences and the process is dynamic as if consciousness has momentum. Here, lies our realm where we can relate and grow in continuous motion. In short, we must learn to form a relationship with our problems rather than snubbing them.

Personal development by adopting the approach of subtle bonding with our personalities differ from one individual to another. Some would experience a complete transformation when old traits are totally disregarded and some would only experience partial transformation when old traits revisit their ‘minds’. Above all this and more importantly, we evolve to a higher sense of ourselves.

“Third Eye”

Although our physical reality appears to be three dimensional, any subject matter that draws from it and projected onto the mind is foremost perceived as a two dimensional caption. A subject matter can take the form of anything associating to an object, event or relationship in which our physical reality has to offer. The two dimensional state of any subject matter if not given the attention to alter its form, will either remained unanswered or eventually become the source to most of our anxieties. The main contributing factor to this occurrence is due to our limited perspective to enact a sufficient response for an analysis to develop an adequate understanding of the subject matter. When the process of conceiving is inadequate prior to a failed analysis, the subject matter that comes to mind turns into a ‘rigid’ problem. Two dimensional caption must be altered to a three dimensional form in the mind before any progress is possible.

I refer when a subject matter turns into a problem, as a “two dimensional” contradiction of the mind. Why contradiction? In a situation like this when the subject matter is presented in two dimensions to the mind, we cannot relate to it. Instead, we make it into a problem bigger than we are, by losing our head over it. The behavioural nature of the mind is to refuse and reject, rather than welcome and interact with the problem in order for a solution to be sought. In most cases if not all, problems are self-created. Yet, we reason – Is it possible to lose control over a self-created problem? With that basis of irrationality is where our contradiction lies. If we learn to shift our perceptions just a little bit, we will see that there is depth in every subject matter. Meaning that, there is a solution or multiple solutions to every presented problem. There is no dead end, only the mind tends to think that. When depth is sighted in the realm of the mind, destiny is revealed. In our world of physical reality, the environment is presented in three dimensions with depth being the third measurement. Depth is relevant as it allows us to analyse our choices we wish to make from deciding which route to take in the parking lot to get to our car to a simple task of reaching out with our hand into space to catch a falling ball. Without depth being the third measurement, our physical reality as we know it will appear non-interactive like a film projected onto the cinematic silver screen. Harnessing the concept of flexibility from our physical reality and applying them to the mind will not only alleviate anxieties and emotional stresses, but also reconditioned our being to be more positive and responsive, or rather spontaneous.

The analogy best to help explain this concept is to take any subject matter liking to a closed door. As long as the door remains closed, the view associated to the mind is a two dimensional subject entity without a direction or solution. When visualising the door opening, perspective of the view will begin to change. Now, imagine stepping to one side to view more of the opening from another angle, the view becomes even more revealing. That is because we are able to perceive the third dimension of depth hidden behind the door. The “third eye” becomes more profound as the level of depth grows deeper. The more revealing the depth, the more prevailing our psyche and wisdom will become. The preferred approach in opening the door is to do it without force as if with a key in hand to unlock it. If committed to force, anxiety will surely take hold of us and the effort will be consequently meaningless and futile as decisions made from that source of desperation will prove erroneous. And, anxiety can sometimes lead us to fear through a process of over imagination.

“Third eye” is more of an understanding before the mind adopts it as a skill. It unfolds when the mind is in sync with the spirit, a process sometimes called awakening. The skill to glimpse the future comes from understanding the concept of the spirit. That makes sense because this world is made of all spirit and connected by intention. When we understand the spirit, we can read its intention. It is a process where awareness or perception shifts. This skill can extend to an exercise of fortune telling, though it may not necessarily bring about the expected outcome. Why? Because in the physical reality for instance, just as we can proceed in the direction of our desire does not necessarily mean that we will end up in that place. It is the same case when we choose to take an alternative route in the parking lot thinking it will get us to our car but may end up getting ourselves lost instead.

“Third eye’ is vested in man and, yet our lives hang in balance by a greater force. That is the reason why we should not take to heart the tales of fortune tellers or spiritual translators who can influence our thoughts to over imagine and draw conclusions to our lives. Such approach to interpret or evaluate the laws of God is fallible and the effects to say the least, troubling. Losing perspective on life by dabbling with such practices can lead us to fear which is the common derivative effect. However, the experience of the “third eye” to some of us may extend to love. Regular remark which most of us take for granted such as, “How are you?” may bring a whole different meaning. The words deliver the message of love, instead of just another passing remark which we are so used to hearing. We feel the intention and no longer think it. In this state of mind, feeling lifted happens all the time, sort of little series of epiphanies as the relationships with our environment begin to reveal a common understanding.

Nevertheless, we strive to achieve our desired goals making a difference in every step of the way and leave the interpretation of our lives to the care of God. We may sense the direction of the future, but it is by all means not written.

Lord’s Prayer, a Gift of Deliverance


Ancient Hebrew text prophesied the coming of a messiah who would walk the earth and live amongst ordinary men to bring deliverance. Though such a man of God by the name of Jesus did appear, and his mystique brought great hope to his people, but their faith was quickly put to test when the life of the messiah concluded in an untimely death. Was the deliverance as foretold at all real, or accurate? A case of forsaken promises perhaps? The death of Jesus had left many of his followers in bewilderment.

Nonetheless, Jesus did fulfil the prophecy to the absolute. Though much was owed to his existence through mysticism however, Christ’s teaching was a revelation. He revealed that true freedom lies within the mind, that inward journey which must be sought to pave the way to deliverance.

Ignorant men could only tap from their limited perspective, and draw conclusion from their physical reality. Cries of the Jewish colony of being subjugated by foreign rulers was a prescription drawn from the external perspective. Jesus addressed the situation by approaching the mind rather than the circumstance, and that no man could be subjected to persecution unless he allowed it. Circumstances of persecution were the colony’s reality, but they were of no consequence to the truth that lies within the mind. Jesus revealed that when the mind evolves from the truth so will the physical reality by mere reflection from it. From that point of view, the mind dictates the circumstance and not the opposite. When touched by the truth, any person would see his/her world of existence differently.

In short, persecution or social oppression is indicative to the mind derived from a captivated point of view, not knowing the possibility of other similar livelihood lies just beyond that scope of view. Imagine a world away in India during the same era where inhabitants of that part of the world lived under a rigid customary belief in the cast system which is still widely practised today. Is this form of denigration any worse than the situation imposed on the Jews? It can’t be, as both circumstances are of the same root. Mistreatment among fellow men is a disability confined by the physical senses, nothing more.

Circumstances of existence orchestrated in the physical reality are nothing more than causes of consequence dictated by a karmic process or “cause and effect” paradigm if you like. Freedom cannot be sought there as it runs from one cycle to another in continuous fashion like a board game with the dice kept rolling. Jesus knew life’s external facet was like a painting in which you could add any colours to it that you wished once the truth is harnessed. Truth is freedom. It is sought only from within through experience and understanding.

There is nothing more revealing in the revelation of Jesus than the prayer that he bestowed. Every word is a reference to the inner light. It is a prayer to sought God within. Contrary to the notion that the messiah would lead his people out of persecution literally by the hand, but the story of Jesus is a promise fulfilled which brought deliverance by virtue of a prayer. The Lord’s prayer is the map to the life and death of Jesus, embedded in it is his total essence.

Lord’s Prayer

“Our Father, which art in heaven, Hallowed be thy Name. Thy Kingdom come. Thy will be done in earth, As it is in heaven. Give us this day our daily bread. And forgive us our trespasses, As we forgive them that trespass against us. And lead us not into temptation, But deliver us from evil. For thine is the kingdom, The power, and the glory, For ever and ever. Amen.”

These words are drawn from the truth, and it is intended to aid the ignorant to draw the truth out. It cannot to be taken as a speech of sort which is to be spoken loudly so God could hear it. Think about it, no God or gods could hear you even if you shouted the prayer from the mountain top. The message would not have reached God, but the God in you. The only intelligent entity that could hear and understand you, is yourself.

From the beginning to the end the prayer takes aim at the soul. It is intended to awaken the spirit from the mind. For awakening to take place, the mind must shift its perceptions through experience and understanding. “Heaven” and “Kingdom of God” are descriptions of the eternal realm where spirits reside in unity.

“Thy will be done in earth, as it is in heaven. Give us this day our daily bread”, gives reference to our environment or physical reality to provide us the experiences we needed to help our mind develop an understanding. Only then, any kind of separation and disconnection in perception will melt away to allow deliverance to prevail.

“And forgive us our trespasses, as we forgive them that trespass against us”, is the outcome to an experience in the awakening of the soul once the sense of separation is dissolved, hence love.

“And lead us not into temptation, But deliver us from evil. For thine is the kingdom, The power, and the glory, For ever and ever”, is to tame our mind by centering it and breaking away from the elements stemmed from pride to arrive at a common ground with the eternal spirit.

Here, we grow to accept the consequences of our existence as a union between our environment and us in spirit where our representation constantly redefining itself, and in togetherness we evolve to a higher sense of ourselves. The mind that is spoken of here is not an encapsulation of the brain, it is a representation of the entire human body. Every body part exists some form of bond which defines their uniqueness to perform specific function based on the given memory or consciousness. Our environment too is an elaborate work of a mind. There is God in everything. Evolving mind through love will see our spirit emerge with a whisper of a prayer.